“Mary”

READ: Job 17; Acts 24-26

Topic: relationship w/ God

SCRIPTURE:
Job 17:11 “My days have passed, my plans are shattered, and so are the desires of my heart.”
Acts 26:17-18 “I'm sending you off to open the eyes of the outsiders so they can see the difference between dark and light, and choose light, see the difference between Satan and God, and choose God. I'm sending you off to present my offer of sins forgiven, and a place in the family, inviting them into the company of those who begin real living by believing in me.”

OBSERVATION:
As Job felt, I feel today (and have been) that desires that once were in my heart no longer lives there. I’m just left with feeling tired and very empty. It’s hard to “give” when I have nothing to give.

In Jobs and Paul’s lives they found God to be the choice to make. And today I find myself faced with a choice. Do I want to exist being Martha or do I want to live, really live as Mary?

Why do I find myself in the role of Martha – constantly? It’s easier… I love tasks more above relationships. But I’m still left with the choice!

APPLICATION:
To make the right choice, once off and live the answer daily!

PRAYER:
“God there is NO way I know what to say. I have nothing to say, I’m only standing in front of you. I’ve hurt myself again. I can’t help myself being Martha. Forgive me Lord, I hurt You – and I have! You desire a relationship from me and yet I have a very hard time with that. I keep on relating You to my Father – and Lord, You know that is NOT easy. I want to have a relationship with You, but Lord, I don’t want to try and “do” it. It’s not about doing, but being. Teach me – I LONG to know and understand Lord. I don’t want to keep on doing ministry being Martha. It’s SUICIDE! I pray for Your strength to carry through on my decision. You are my choice and You ALWAYS will be my choice! In the Name of Jesus Christ, I pray, Amen.”